It has been a long-winding journey for me to learn and integrate Courage within me.
Since young, I have always felt deeply fearful of many things in life.
Growing up with a strict disciplinarian father, I was fearful of doing or saying the wrong things, lest I trigger a volcanic explosion within him, which will only scar myself and the people I love. Inculcated in the deep-rooted beliefs of black versus white, success versus failure, I was fearful of straddling into shades of grey, of committing mistakes, of being seen as a failure.
After I was diagnosed with a type of autoimmune disease in 2005, which relapsed and manifested into another type in 2010, I was placed on daily blood thinners (warfarin, aka “rat poison”) for life. Since then, I was fearful of sustaining a cut, wound or bruise to my body, for fear of being unable to stop my bleeding in time, and risk bleeding to death.
With my daily intake of warfarin, I started fearing the long-term side effects of taking warfarin, as well as the increasingly high dosage of warfarin that my body needed. Without warfarin, I was advised that blood clots may form sporadically in my body, which can potentially be life-threatening; if the blood clot lodges onto my heart, I may get a heart attack, if the blood clot lodges onto my brain, I may get a stroke, and so on. I was fearful of all that happening to me.
Navigating the workplace was a real challenge. Working with a difficult boss, I was fearful of “not making the cut” / not being good enough, of making mistakes. Even when I was struggling badly at work (almost suicidal), I clung on desperately to my job, as I was fearful of being seen as weak and a failure by my own father.
It was only when my spiritual journey unfolded, that I realised I needed Courage. It was the missing ingredient in my life. I have lived most of my life in fear. I didn’t know how to live my life courageously. What does it mean? How will I feel? How will my life be?
Sometime in 2021, I set the firm intention to my Akashic Records Team to deeply learn and embody Courage in my life. Little did I know, my intention resulted in a reshuffle of my Akashic Records Team, to bring forth more powerful, fiery and protective Guides onboard.
It was only yesterday night that Goddess Sekhmet revealed to me that she came onboard at that point in time, to guide me on my journey with Courage.
Back then, I didn’t question the identity of my Akashic Records Team. I simply trusted in the authenticity of the energies I feel, and I allowed them to work with me in my life.
My first lesson on Courage was with a dizi (Chinese flute) teacher at a music school.
After my vivid dreams of learning a dizi, I decided to follow the gentle nudges of my heart, and enrolled myself into a music school for weekly dizi classes. In my first trial class, my teacher was kind and patient with me, which motivated me to invest in a better quality dizi and to purchase a package of 10 classes with him. When our classes formally began, the dizi teacher changed into a short-tempered, impatient, and rude person. In our second class, after I repeatedly couldn’t blow the notes correctly, he became agitated. He kicked up a fuss, asked me to put aside my dizi, and passed me his dizi to practise instead. When I couldn’t even blow his dizi properly, he told me sarcastically, “even with this dizi, you still can’t blow it well”. He was left fuming quietly to himself for the rest of the class, as I kept trying and trying.
I remembered leaving the music school late at night, with a heavy heart. I didn’t know what was going on, and I couldn’t express my emotions well. When I finally reached home, my mother sensed something was not right and asked me “how was your dizi class”? It was then I burst out crying and said “why am I so stupid and slow”?
As I spent quiet time alone that night, my Akashic Records Team gathered around me. A voice came through: What makes you think that you are stupid and slow? Where did this come from? It was a fruitful night of self-realisations as we journeyed through my inner child wounds together.
With the support of my Team, I plucked up the Courage to express my dissatisfaction to the music school and to request for a refund of my unutilised package, despite the strict no-refund policy. They refused. I persisted. Eventually, they gave in, and we settled amicably.
This incident made me realise that my emotions matter, and I have what it takes to stand up & speak up for myself, and to protect my inner children.
My next lesson on Courage came during the turbulent Covid period, when I was still working as a legal counsel at a government agency.
There was a period when governments of many countries intensified their push to compel everyone to simply obey and take the jab. The situation worsened in government-linked organisations, where they were ordered to set the standards right, by striving towards 100% compliance as “role models” for others to follow.
Even though the medical literature was sparse and the vaccine was at the experimental stage, many people felt compelled to take the jab, out of fear. Be it fear of losing their lives, fear of losing their jobs, fear of losing their freedom to travel or to access public amenities, fear of rejection by others, and more.
Back then, I was warned sternly by my Team that my body was unable to tolerate the vaccine, which would cause irreparable destruction to my body. Because I knew how vulnerable my body was (still at the mercy of daily warfarin), and because of my promise to the Divine that I will dedicate my life to serve others, I refused to take the vaccine at all costs.
At the workplace, I was thrusted into the spotlight as the only 1 out of 2 outliers, in the entire organisation of 500 employees, who refused to obey the orders to take the jab.
During my 1-on-1 performance appraisal, my boss raised his voice and warned me sternly that my name was mentioned in the senior management meeting, and if I refuse to comply, my name would be submitted to the higher authority to be permanently blacklisted, my performance rating would be adversely affected, and I was threatened with dismissal.
Despite how fearful I was, I refused to give in.
During that period, my Team gathered closely around me. A strong voice often came through to guide me on the next steps. I was shown that I just needed to “keep to myself” and “stay low” during this turbulent period, when emotions run high, so as not to draw unnecessary attention to myself. I was also shown that after a few months, they would give up on me as the only outlier, as I was too unimportant and insignificant for them to focus their energies on.
Indeed, everything that was predicted by my Team, came true. Like sensational news, the intense attention came and went.
And so, I learned a deep lesson on Courage, to protect my sacred body at all costs.
Even though I was never asked to leave, I embarked on my exit plan and paved the way for me to eventually bid farewell to the agency after 7 years of service. To better times!
WHEN GODDESS SEKHMET ASKED TO JOIN IN THIS MASTERCLASS…
When Goddess Sekhmet stepped forth and asked to be included for this Masterclass on Facets of Love with the Goddesses, I was initially a little hesitant.
I felt that maybe I wasn’t a suitable messenger and conduit of Light, as my gentle and mild-mannered personality contrasted sharply with her fiercely protective and passionate energies. She, however, insisted and told me that she would never have chosen me as a channel if she hadn’t prepared me sufficiently for this event. So, I trusted and went ahead.
In the journey of preparation, I was shown many things:
1) We don’t learn Courageous Love from our comfortable, cosy lounges and lifestyles. Instead, we truly learn and master Courageous Love from the depths of our pain, fear, suffering, misery and anguish, in the low points or rock-bottoms in life.
2) Courageous Love is about having that inner Power and Fire. To stand up and speak up for ourselves, others, and what truly matters to us.
3) Even in the low points in life, Courageous Love guides us to Rise like a Phoenix above all odds, to Transmute the fears, to Rise to a higher potential and version of ourselves. Because We Matter.
And therefore, it is with my long-winding journey of learning to stand up for myself, speak up for myself, protect myself at all costs, that I am here today to shine the Light on Courageous Love.
On hindsight, I am proud of how far I have walked in my journey with Courage, from where I first started as a deeply fearful person. If Goddess Sekhmet hadn’t came to my life in those points when my lessons on Courage unfolded, without that strong guidance and protection, I couldn’t imagine where I would land today.
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Sending Love and Blessings your way,
Asha
🎙️You can listen to the audio recording in Season 2 Episode 5 of my Podcast on “Demystifying the Akashic Records”. Spotify and Apple Podcast links below.
