Today, I would like to reflect on a topic that is close to my heart.
For many years, I was known to others to be a rather introverted, quiet, soft-spoken and passive person. I rarely or almost never share with others how I truly think or feel. Deep down, I often feel that nobody really cares any way. Most of the time, I bottled everything up, as I quietly processed what others were trying to influence me externally.
Throughout my life, in everywhere I go, I often find myself trapped in a web of control & oppression extended by others who were trying to influence & dictate how I should think, feel and act. If it is a brief, one-off encounter with a particularly aggressive person, perhaps one could say it is a mere coincidence. But if the behavioral pattern keeps repeating itself with different people we meet, it often means that there is a lesson for us to internalise, which we have yet to internalise.
What then is the lesson for me to internalise in this context?
Since young, I grew up with a particularly controlling father. While he was extremely responsible in taking care of the family financially, he often imposed his belief systems upon us, as if it was the one & only ultimate truth available. For example, he subscribes to a religion that is a mix of Buddhism and Taoism. For many years, he would repeatedly share with us that his (and our) religion is the one & only correct religion & pathway to God/Source/Creator. He would even scorn at the other Chinese who subscribed to the other religions, as a deviation from the more than 2,000 years of rich, proven history & heritage of China. To justify his beliefs, he often cited to us examples of people whose prayers were “not answered” when they subscribed to other religions, only to have their prayers “answered” when they “converted” to his religion.
For many years, I was very much influenced by my dad’s beliefs. I assumed that he knew everything better than I do, and since he is the head of the family, he must be right. With his dominance over us & the absolute conviction in his voice, I never really doubted what he said. I simply accepted everything as the truth.
As fate would have it, I ended up joining the Girls’ Brigade in my secondary school days. I couldn’t secure a spot in the National Police Cadet Corps, as I could neither run as fast, nor jump as far, as my other contenders. In case you don’t know, Girls’ Brigade is a uniformed group centered around, and guided by, Christian values & belief systems. As the pioneer batch of the Girls’ Brigade, I didn’t know what awaited me when I joined. Every experience was pretty new to me. Every Saturday, we would gather for worship (where we would sing along to Christian songs), cell group sessions (where we would pore through a few verses of the Bible), and other activities (such as drills – my favourite, and sometimes cheerleading or netball sessions). For a few times yearly, we would also participate in 4 days 3 nights camps held in our school, or with the Girls’ Brigade community from other schools in Singapore. We had plenty of opportunities to meet, mingle with one another, and to know more about Christianity.
It was during my experience in the Girls’ Brigade that I started wondering whose version of truth is correct.
Is it my dad’s version, or is it the Girls’ Brigade version, or is it some other version that I have yet to come across? It doesn’t help that everyone who was preaching their own version of truth, was saying it with absolute certainty and conviction. That theirs is the one & only correct religion and pathway to God/Source/Creator; everything else is incorrect. It also doesn’t help that I feel a sense of connection to both religions, that is, certain Gods & Goddesses in Buddhism, and certain parts of the Bible. 😅
For a few years, I found myself straddling both religions. To be honest, I wasn’t drawn so much to Jesus Christ himself, but I was drawn to the truth in certain parts of his teachings. I couldn’t really understand why people are expected to pledge their faith & allegiance to one religion, to the exclusion of the other. Why can’t there be one God/Source/Creator across all religions? Why can’t it be seen that different religions offer different pathways, which ultimately lead to the same Source?
It was only when I learned about the Akashic Records, and communed with my Akashic Masters, that everything started to make sense to me. That there is ample space in the vast Universe to allow everyone to live harmoniously together. In the 5th dimension where the Akashic Masters came from, they don’t hold themselves hostage to all these differences & boundaries drawn by us. Instead, they see themselves as operating in unity as one consciousness, to serve, assist and guide us back to Source. Even till today, their unconditional love, compassion & selflessness continue to amaze me and touch my heart deeply. They may not always fulfill every request of ours, if it is not aligned to our highest good. Nonetheless, they are always ready to convene and support us energetically at our request. They never see themselves as superior to us; they are always grateful and honoured to serve their precious children on earth.
Through accessing my Akashic Records, I was also guided to remember the lifetimes of control & oppression that I experienced, which I have yet to fully liberate myself from. It was a repeated pattern that followed me across several lifetimes.
One key character that kept appearing in my past lives was my father. While he wasn’t always my dad in these past lives, he was usually aggressive towards me. That definitely struck a chord deep within me. It finally made sense to me why I often felt very emotional, aggrieved and triggered, each time he was, or attempted to be, physically or verbally abusive towards me. Sometimes, my reactions & emotions felt rather disproportionate to his seemingly innocuous words & actions.
In many past lives, I was also reminded of the price that I paid for standing up for my own beliefs – be it being imprisoned, tortured, placed under house arrest or even killed. Unconsciously, these past lives molded me to behave in a passive way, not daring to stand up for myself & my own beliefs. Whenever I needed to stand up for myself, I would feel an unexplainable sense of deep fear creeping within, all ready to warn me of the danger that lurks ahead. But each time I managed to overcome all odds to stand up for myself, I would feel deeply empowered and victorious within.
Recently, I was again reminded of the repeated cycle of control & oppression that I needed to break free from, or at least learn to break free from.
For the first incident, my boss at the workplace desperately wanted to improve the division’s scores in the annual employee engagement survey. After failed attempts to improve the scores for the past years, he decided to take an aggressive stance this year. He made it mandatory for all division staff to include, in their annual performance appraisal, KPIs pegged to attaining his desired scores for certain survey questions. While he framed the rationale as it takes two hands to clap (supervisor & employee), we can all smell a rat from a mile away. It was basically his last ditch attempt to give his ego a much-needed boost, to salvage his image as a capable & popular boss in the eyes of the senior management. When it was time for us to complete the survey, he even reminded us to provide our “honest and balanced feedback”, while remembering the KPIs that we have committed to, in our annual performance appraisal. To be honest, I was in a dilemma how I should complete the survey. One part of me was deeply fearful of any potential repercussions, should I decide to go against my boss’ wishes. Another part of me was reluctant to go against my conscience, to hide my truth in a bid to soothe my boss’ ego. After much deliberation, I chose to vote according to my conscience. It brought me deep peace within, knowing that I chose to stand up for my views, instead of allowing my fears to control & overwhelm me.
For the second incident, lately there has been a barrage of workplace policies discriminating against the unvaccinated staff, in a bid to strongly push for everyone to be fully vaccinated. Amongst others, all unvaccinated staff had to undergo twice a week supervised Antigen Rapid Test (ART), which applies even if the staff works from home. In comparison, all vaccinated staff only had to undergo weekly unsupervised ART, which only applies if the staff returns to office. The rationale given was that the stringent ART policy applies for the unvaccinated staff, in order to protect them from being infected with Covid, as well as to protect the vaccinated staff. To sidetrack a little, if we could pause and consider:
- How effective is the vaccine if the vaccinated needs to be protected from the unvaccinated?
- Why must the unvaccinated staff’s ART be supervised, while the vaccinated staff’s ART is unsupervised? Are the unvaccinated not trusted to report the truth for their ART results?
- On the rationale to protect the unvaccinated from being infected with Covid, does it even make sense with the recent measures requiring all infected persons (vaccinated and unvaccinated) to self-isolate at home?
- Why is there a lack of specific data on all adverse reactions (including death) within 2 weeks from vaccination (including boosters), despite such issues being widely reported in other countries?
Wherever we are, we must be careful of the attempts to divide the people, to pit the vaccinated against the unvaccinated. We must be mindful of the convenient excuse to blame the unvaccinated as the culprit for the spike in Covid cases, or for taking up limited hospital beds and oxygen supplementation.
Allow ourselves to consider over the next few months: What is the real reason behind many countries’ continued push for vaccination, despite data suggesting that it may not be that effective? Who truly benefits from the vaccination campaign?
Whatever the challenges may be, one thing is clear to me. In this lifetime, I will do my best to break free from the cycle of control & oppression that I experienced across lifetimes. In times of darkness, I can no longer remain as a passive observer, quietly observing everything from the sidelines, and quietly enduring all the injustice and discrimination that come my way.
I am here to forge a new path for myself – one paved by resilience, courage, power, wisdom, truth and clarity.
Wherever you are, remember that you are never alone. Whether you are vaccinated or unvaccinated, you remain a precious child of God/Source/Creator. You are a part of them, as much as they are a part of you. Whenever you feel fearful or overwhelmed, call upon your Akashic Masters to surround you and protect you. Let’s overcome all odds together! 💪🏻
Masters, would you have anything to share with us?
This period of darkness calls for humanity to stand in unity and resilience to the dark forces that come your way. There is strength in numbers, and unity remains possible despite the illusory divide projected by the dark forces in power. Remember that you are the Light that will pave the way for others to find their way out of the darkness. Never underestimate how innately powerful you are. You are a divine being. You are a precious child of God/Source/Creator. You are the Light that will lit the way forward in times of darkness. And so it is. 🧡
With Love & Blessings,
Asha & Akashic Masters
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